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So, it's been a while and I really don't have anything to talk about. Not a whole lot has been going on lately. I sure do miss grandma a whole lot! It's already been 3 weeks...it feels like a lifetime. What's weird is that I am afraid I am not going to remember what she looks like. I have seen her all of my life, I know, but I just have a fear that I am going to forget. I don't want to forget. I want to remember every single feature. She aged so well. Her hands were so soft and smooth. Wow, I just miss her. I was lying in bed last week and I started to cry because all I could see when I would think about her was the EMS crew pushing on her chest as they pushed her out the door or her just laying there on the table, lifeless. I don't want to remember that stuff. I want to remember her alive and laughing or being grumpy as she sometimes was. She hated it when I didn't answer my phone. She did not like to leave messages. If she did they wouldn't be very pleasant! :-) I don't have caller id and even though I would tell her that over and over again, she didn't believe me. hahaha.....she is greatly missed! My mom has been staying with me ever since this all happened and I have enjoyed that. I think she is about to go home. I am ok with her going home but at the same time, I won't be able to check on her and make sure she is ok. I can of course go and see her and call her but it won't be the same.

Dear Jesus, just give her peace. Be with her as she returns to her regular, everyday life. Bring peace to her household. Love on her and comfort her. Thank you for all that you have done for our family. Please tell grandma that we sure do miss her. Thank you for making her better. In Jesus' name. Amen

We finally got our Christmas tree decorated last night. It looks a little bare. I think we are missing some ornaments because our tree was a lot cuter last year but Mario claims that it is the same. I know that we had some homemade ornaments from the kids last year but I guess it is all my imagination. H has been in school for 2 years now so I know they have made some sort of ornament for the tree. I know they have made them in church! Speaking of church, I miss it! I have not been able to go much since my grandma passed. I know it has only been 2 weeks (WOW!!) but I am used to going on Sunday and Wednesday and it feels like forever when I cannot go every time! I can't believe it has already been 2 weeks! I miss her so much! It has definitly been different over the last couple of weeks. I really wish I could hug her! I slept better last night than I have in 2 weeks because I heard my grandma laughing. Ever since she passed, I have just prayed that God would let me see her in my dreams. Well, I haven't been able to dream about her and it is making me very upset! I haven't even been able to picture her in my head. Last night as I was laying in bed, I started to cry. Then all of the sudden, I pictured her face and heard her laughing. Grandma would get so tickled at things I would tell her about the kids and would just start laughing and I loved that laugh! I finally saw her in my head and it made me feel so much better. That might sound weird but I felt better!
I really don't have too much to talk about at the moment.....I'll write more later!

I am going to post some pictures on here just as soon as I learn how! I have not quite figured it out yet but as soon as I do, you'll know! :-)

My Husband

I just have to say that I have the best husband! He is so good to me! He is the sweetest, most loving man I know! Thank you, Honey, for being such a Godly husband and for loving me the way that you do. You are the best daddy and husband EVER!!!! I love you!